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[Mar. 18th, 2006|09:57 am] |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|11:49 pm] |
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im a good person
i open the door for the elderly, or for moms and their strollers..and im always on time for work, and i always do my job, and i make people laugh, i make people smile, i have things that im passionate about, and even if i fail at something, i dont get discouraged easily and i dont let it hold me down, i'll always keep trying, i have people that i love, i have people that love me, i apologize when im wrong and i stand up for what i believe in when i know im right, i can laugh in the face of sadness and sleep off a days worth of stress, i have determination, i admit that im not perfect and it doesnt bother me for one minute that im not, if i upset somebody i care about, ill do whatever it takes to get them to forgive me, i understand what forgiveness means, and i embrace it because i realize life is too short. i dont want to have regrets. i believe something good will happen in my life soon that will act as an awakening for my suffering soul and mind... im a good person so why am i being treated like im a bad one? |
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[May. 12th, 2005|07:27 am] |
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this is killing me.....
is it killing you??
i dont want it to be this way, please |
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[May. 9th, 2005|08:59 am] |
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| |  all i can ask is why... | ] |
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| | motherfucking library sounds ;x | ] |
what you're about to read is just what ive been thinking about lately, i dont want anybodys "sympathy comments" so dont leave me any saying crap like "aw im so sorry" just leave me comments if you <3 me, thats basically all i need right now :(
I’m disgusted with myself. Right now I consider myself a pretty shitty person, I have no motivation to do anything that involves school right now, and I don’t know what happened to me. All through high school I was so excited to go to college and finally take classes that would actually be of service to me in the future and now that I’m there and “completed” my freshman year, I consider it a waste. I can’t remember a time in the past 9 months where I truly enjoyed myself. If I wasn’t at school, I was at work, if I wasn’t at work, I was at home dealing with my parents telling me how much I suck at life. At times I contemplated quitting at everything I do and just locking myself in my room. I know why I didn’t do as well as I’d hoped for this year. I didn’t enjoy myself. I don’t do well when I don’t enjoy myself. And I know why I didn’t enjoy myself, because I didn’t have things that could make me smile even if the people that claim to “care about me the most” made me frown. I didn’t have dance. I didn’t have volleyball. I didn’t have the strange security that high school somehow gave to me. I wasn’t surrounded by people I knew for years. I wasn’t driving 25 minutes to and from a college almost every day. I wasn’t working 40 hours a week. I know these are all ridiculous excuses for not having motivation and not doing so good, but maybe I wasn’t ready yet. Maybe I should have taken a year off to work and figure some stuff out, and then attend school. I’m sick and tired of people who barely know what runs thru my head telling me what’s “good” for me. Who are they to tell me I’m crazy for wanting to be a part time student? Who are they to tell me what I should or shouldn’t do? I know I’m a smart person. I know what I am capable of. I just need to find it in myself to do well. Maybe if I had lived on campus I would have done better, in fact I’m 100% sure I would have. I don’t even know why I wrote this. I guess I just needed to get it all out. I’m tired of feeling bad about myself. I’m tired of hurting. I’m tired of being hurt. I’m tired of people hurting me and saying shitty things to me and not realizing it only makes me feel about 35465 times worse about myself. I’m tired of people saying things to me that make me wonder about whether or not I am really a good person or not. I wish I could look on the bright side of things right now and say forget it all and move on because its summertime and everything will be better soon, but I cant even do that……what’s wrong with me… |
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[Apr. 29th, 2005|01:32 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | aslyn- be that girl | ] |
if u get over a 70 you're a movie whore...
- x the ones you've seen -
()Napoleon Dynamite
()Saw
(x)White Noise
()White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
()50 First Dates
(x)Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(X)Scream 3
()Scary Movie
()Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(X)American Pie 2
()American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
()Harry Potter 2
()Harry Potter 3
(x)Resident Evil I
(x)Resident Evil 2
(X)The Wedding Singer
()Little Black Book
()The Village
()Donnie Darko
()Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
()13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
()White Chicks
(x)Butterfly Effect
()Thirteen going on 30
()I Robot
(x)Dodge ball
()Universal Soldier
()A Series Of Unfortunate Events
()Along Came A Spider
(x) Deep impact
(x)KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet The Fockers
()Eight Crazy Nights
(x)A Cinderella Story
()The Terminal
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
()Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
()Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
() The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar go to white castle
()Practical Magic
()Chicago
()Ghost Ship
()From Hell
()Hellboy
()Secret Window
()I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
()Child's Play
()Bride of Chucky
()Ten Things I Hate About You
()Just Married
()Gothika
(x)A Nightmare on Elm Street
(x)Sixteen Candles
(x)Bad Boys 2
()Joy Ride
(x)Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x)Oceans Twelve
()Identity
()Lone Star
()Bedazzled
()Predator I
()Predator II
(x)Independence Day
()Cujo
()A Bronx Tale
()darkness Falls
()Christine
(x) ET
()Children of the Corn
()My boss' daughter
(x)Maid in Manhattan
()Frailty
()Best bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
()Calendar Girls
()Sideways
()Mars Attacks
()Event Horizon
(x)Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
()Big Trouble in Little China
()X-men 1
(x)X-men 2
(x)Jeepers Creepers
(x)Jeepers Creepers 2
()Catch Me If You Can
()The Others
(x)Freaky Friday (the jodie foster version)
()Reign of Fire
(x)Cruel Intentions
(x)The Hot Chick
()Swimfan
()Miracle
(x)Old School
()Ray
()the Notebook
()K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x)A Walk to Remember
()Boogeyman
(x)Hitch
()Back Door Sluts 9
()The Fifth Element
()Star wars episode I
()Star wars episode II
()Star wars episode IV
()Star wars episode V
()Star wars episode VI
()Troop Beverly Hills
()Swimming with Sharks
()Trainspotting
()People under the stairs
()Blue Velvet
(x)Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
()The Burbs
()SLC Punk
()Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
()A Clockwork Orange
()The Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
()Amelie
()Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
()The Incredibles
()Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
(x)2 Fast 2 Furious
()Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
()Closer
(x)The Sixth Sense
()Artificial intelligence
()Love actually
()Shutter
()Ella Enchanted
()Princess diaries 1
()Princess diaries 2
()the graduate
() Constantine
() Million Dollar Baby
(x) Jawbreaker
haha i got 67, yay im not a movie whore... |
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[Apr. 29th, 2005|07:25 am] |
i dont regret anything.
i dont know why you would... thanks. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
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| | Black eyed peas- dont "phunk" with my heart | ] |
here are some pet peeves of mine;
1) making plans with somebody, then having THEM break it off about an hour before, which i completely understand and dont care, but what i DO care about is then having THEM say that 'it was obvious you didnt want to hang out anyways so its okay' wtf ...
2) people meet new people everyday. people can make new friends. it doesnt mean you have to completely and totally disregard your old true friends... or ignore them for that matter (or so thats what it seems like..)
3) i have a new found respect for life. seriously i look at myself and realize that i sometimes get upset over the stupidest things, like the fact that my sound doesnt work on my laptop and i have no idea how to make it work, or how i had to work late and im tired as hell, or that my parents never buy decent food to eat around the house... when i think of those things i now stop myself, because is that seriously worth complaining about? i wish i thought this way before without being influenced, but after reading an article on patriots.com about some players visiting some injured soldiers and reading how they take things for granted and complain about things that will in no way ever compare to what these soldiers went thru, it realy made me think... and literally everybody i know complains about THE most unimportant things in life, and it irritates me, so im making it a point to stop complaining and just love life and be grateful for whatever comes my way, whether it be good or bad. and i think everybody should do the same. stop complaining about the little things in life and realize you have it good, especially compared to everybody overseas.
4) hmm i dont remember if there was a fourth one or not, but thats okay!
well that felt good to get out.
later guys. |
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[Apr. 9th, 2005|08:35 am] |
Kristen Star Simpson's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Cheez Its Earl
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Your fashion designer name is Kristen
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Your socialite name is Peaches Boston
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Your fly girl / guy name is K Sim
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Your detective name is Dolphins Mansfield High School
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Your barfly name is Pizza
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Your soap opera name is Star Lakeview
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Your rock star name is Milky Way Sex
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Your star wars name is Kritwi Sim
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Your punk rock band name is The Awake
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[Apr. 4th, 2005|09:08 am] |
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| | Fran Barth going over our exam... i got an 80! meh.... | ] |
A is for age: 19
B is for booze: anything lite cuz i like my weight..lol
C is for career: *rips hair out* idk!!
D is for dad's name: david
E is for essential items to bring to a party: umm twister! lol jk the average teenager would say beer
F is for favorite song at the moment: jennifer love hewitt "how do i deal"
G is for girlfriend: um i dont HAVE a girlfriend, but if you meant friend, theeeen marianne
H is for hometown: mansfield fuckin represents ... god i hang out with the wrong people.. lol
I is for instruments you play: -------
J is for jam or jelly you like: i dont like either
K is for kids: none yet
L is for living arrangements: in mansfield for now
M is for mom's name: june
N is for name of your best friend(s): matt, marianne,chris, nick.
O is for overnight hospital stays: nope
P is for phobias: spiders
Q is for quote you like: waaaaaaaaaaaaayyy too many to list, probably "follow your heart" or "everything happens for a reason" how original huh
R is for relationship that lasted longest: matt, i mean its still going on
S is for sexual position: *gasps*
U is for unique trait: ummmmmm idk
V is for vegetables you love: carrots
W is for worst trait: i sometimes have mood swings and you'd think i was pregnant, its just the way i am.
X is for x-rays you've had: none
Y is for yummy food you make: chicken caesar salads, pizza
Z is for zodiac sign: sagittarius
FIRSTS ..
First job: real job...dance camp at the Y. babysitting since i was 14
First screen name: *hangs head in shame* even though i still love em, i would NEVER make a screen name like this today.... bsbnicklover805, DONT COMMENT
First funeral: my great aunt liddie
First pet: tvinkles!! and my only pet lol
First piercing: ears when i was 8
First tattoo: not yet..meh who knows
First credit card: my debit is a credit too if that counts
First kiss: freshman year
First enemy: wow i really dont remember...
First favorite musical artist: TLC
LASTS ..
Last car ride: comin to school today
Last kiss: yesterday
Last movie watched: watched the ending of "seven' on sat. nite
Last beverage drank: oj this morning
Last food consumed: donut holes for breakfast
lst phone call: yesterday at work
Last time showered: last night
Last CD played: my mix CD in the car
Last website visited: livejournal, which is how im filling this out fools |
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[Mar. 9th, 2005|12:42 am] |
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| | "Never saw blue like that" from dawsons creek | ] |
You Are Jasmine!
 Independent and adventurous. You don't want much; just to break out of the guilded cage society has put you in and experience life to the fullest. Following orders isn't really one of your strong points, and you would rather live a life of poverty than being forced into something that you hate. Which Disney Princess Are You?
wow, and the statement following it couldnt be more truer |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2005|08:07 am] |
i hate how it seems like everybody is going SOMEWHERE for their break, and i get to be stuck here :-(
march 26th is approaching waaaaaaaaayy too quickly :-D
"Watch me Shine" (yup this was definitely my mass junior miss song hah)
I'm not your average type of girl
I'm gonna show the world
The strength in me that sometimes they can't see
I'm about to switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove that I can conquer anything
So from my head to toe
I'm taking full control
I'll make it on my own..this time
Better watch out going for the knockout
And I won't stop till I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine
So..Get ready here I come
Until the job is done
No time to waste
There's nothing stopping me
But you don't hear me though
So now it's time to show
and prove I'm gonna be The best I can be
So from my head to toe
My mind body and soul
I'm taking full control
This time
Bet you don't think I can take it
But my mind and body are strong
Bet you don't think I can make it
It won't take long
eeeeeeeek |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|08:57 am] |
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| | "I'll try" from Peter Pan | ] |
heeeey guys, yeah i barely write in this damn thing nemore.... oh well
this weekend was the blizzard of 05' , saturday i was sposta work 2-10 at deb but the mall closed at 6 cuz of the storm, then i was snowed in allll saturday night and allll sunday morning/afternoon, but the snow finally stopped at like 4 sunday afternoon and then that night i went to davids apartment to watch the patriots ABSOLUTELY DESTROY the steelers, ahh it feels good to be able to say i live in new england, home of the dynasty :-D
so thats about the only good thing about living in new england right now, sports teams
i hate winter i hate cold i hate snow (unless its on xmas day) i just want warm breezy weather and i want it to be daylight until like 9 at night, AND i want school to be over
asking too much??
ive been keeping up my workouts which i am glad about, today i did
* the "T Pose"- works butt and thigh toner
* the "Plank Knee Pull in" works abs, back, chest, shoulders
* "Mouse House" (lol my favorite) works abs
* "Chair Tap" works legs and biceps
* "Superman meets catwoman" works lower back, and butt
* "Kickbacks" works butt
* 10 slow pushups (slow ones hurt the woooorst)
* "Walking lunge with kick" works thighs
* "Scissors" works abs
* "Criss Cross" abs
* "Teaser" abs
* "Chair Lifts" works pecs
hmmm that all seems like alot but when i did them, it didnt really seem like alot at all..
but it was a really good workout and i need (and will) keep it up the next few months since march and april is coming up... ahem, yeah its funny because people think im not serious about this, oh well, I'LL SHOW THEM, haha jk
neways, now im all showered and clean and im off to watch more episodes of friends on my laptop in my room while cleaning it, then i gotta work at 2:30, grrreeeaaat, i am So looking forward to it :-/
then i get to babysit kiley and kevin tonight til like 11:30 and make 30 bucks sweet! haha at this rate im gonna need every single penny i can get, i HAVE to stop wasting my money, :-(
im sure there will be school tomorrow since there wasnt class monday or today, unless they still havent cleared out the parking lots and they cancel class again tomorrow, which would be sick... but its prolly a long shot
ok im done blabbing on about things nobody cares about
adios
leave me comments<3 |
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[Jan. 11th, 2005|01:34 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vanessa Carlton- Ordinary Day | ] |
hey guys, long time no see
i havent exactly had all the energy in the world to update alot but heres a small update:
* im sick
* classes start next wednesday
* pats are SOOO gonna get in and win the superbowl this year and i cant wait for the parade cuz that always makes me happy
* even though i love living at home and going to college, at the same time, i wanna move out and get my own apartment because that'd be sick
* i need a vacation-- big time, even if it was just going to New Hampshire for a weekend, although i wanna go to Virginia Beach for a long weekend SOOOOOOOOOOOOOo damn bad :-[
heres a song i reeeeeeeeeeally like:
Hoobastank "Just One"
I wanna live, I wanna leave
I wanna open up and breath
I wanna go, I wanna be
I wanna feel it constantly
gotta show, gotta say
I've gotta feeling that won't go away
I've gotta know if they got away
my opportunities
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
just one time I'd like to win the game
from now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one, just one
I need to think, I need to feed
I need to see if I still bleed
I need a place, I need a time
cause I need to step outside that line
gonna give, gonna take
I'm gonna scream till I'm awake
I'm gonna push, I'm gonna pull
open up the door
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
just one time I'd like to win the game
from now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one, just one
And if I knew
when the door was open
I'd go through
I would go on through
and I can say
when I do I'll never be the same
never be the same
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
just one time I'd like to win the game
from now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one, just one
Just one I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one I'll take the chance if I can have it
just one, just one
this song reminds me of something im going to um, pursue in the upcoming months, a few of you know what im talking about and a few of you are probably clueless but thats okay, if all goes well, everybody will know eventually
sigh, all these new prom dresses came in at DEB , and i tried a few on.. and i got sad cuz i wanna go to prom again... these are the ones i tried on:
and they looked really good on me damnit :-[
i wanna be a senior again
but i also wannna be 25
but i also dont wanna get older at all
hm cuz that makes sense
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[Dec. 7th, 2004|06:19 pm] |
 | You scored as Phoebe. You're Phoebe. You come across as a bit weird and ditzy but you're fun loving.
Phoebe | | 60% | Monica | | 50% | Chandler | | 50% | Rachel | | 50% | Joey | | 40% | Ross | | 15% | </td>
Which Friend are you?
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[Dec. 2nd, 2004|03:20 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | usher- caught up | ] |
TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR:
NOSE: kristen
ELBOW: krtgfkixsgted n
CHIN: kfrikszgtedn
FEET: kristen
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: krir75j
BACK OF YOUR HAND: k 6trfojidgesxd n
PALM: jklri sxten
MOUSE: kriousten
WRIST: m, 4r78qwds5tr3
the things i get amused with.... |
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[Nov. 30th, 2004|08:34 am] |
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JEWEL LYRICS
"Sometimes It Be That Way"
Night with its shattered teeth
Attempts to speak
My pen is present but
Courage left via the sink
And I'm sorry
I snuck up on you
From behind
I'm sorry not all
My love letters did rhyme
And I'm sorry that
Jesus died for my sins
And I swear to God
It won't happen again
And I'm sorry
If it was my swerve that
Tempted you to sway
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
And Romeo was
A very nice man
He said
"Jewel, I don't think
You quite understand"
And I'm sorry if you had
To explain it like this
I'm sorry I was a point
You were destined to miss
And I'm sorry
I spoke to you irreverently
Down in the hollow
By the old olive tree
And I'm sorry
If my heart breaking
Ruined your day
Oh well
Sometimes It be that way
I said
"Oh well, I got nothing
Left to sell
This love was a bell that
Rang unheard in the air
I was bound to find out
That you didn't care
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
And Aphrodite with
Her neon lamp
Kissed Neptune
They put her face
On a stamp
And I'm sorry
I used it to mail
A letter to you
I'm sorry I'm glue and
The rest bounces off of you
And I'm sorry not even
This jet's metal wings
Could get across
These simple things
And I'm sorry
If I ever sang
Your name in vain
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
And Goldilocks
Well she knew three bears
They all ate oatmeal
And tiptoed upstairs
And I'm sorry
I never got to
Find you like this
Sleeping like a baby
And swaddled in bliss
And I'm sorry for
All the times
I forgot to imply something
In between the lines
And I'm sorry
If my heart breaking
Ruined your day
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
I said
"Oh well, I got nothing
Left to sell
This love was a bell that
Rang unheard in the air
I was bound to find out
That you didn't care
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
And shadow's long fingers
They dance on the wall
Electricity chases
Its tail in the hall
And I'm sorry
If my arms to you
Were just empty rooms
I'm sorry
I never could comfort you
And I'm sorry
St. Petersburg is
A miserable town
And I'm sorry
If I am bringing you down
And I'm sorry
If I caused you pain
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way
And flame licks the air
With its silver tongue
Night has many hands
But I have just one
And I'm sorry
I walked in on you
Unexpectedly
I'm sorry
I never served you
Camomile tea
And I'm sorry
I didn't always have a match
That could start
A fire big enough
For your heart to catch
And I'm sorry
If it was my swerve that
Tempted you to sway
Oh well
Sometimes it be that way |
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| Spring Semester |
[Nov. 19th, 2004|08:04 am] |
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I only have Monday, Wednesday, Friday classes // Tuesday + Thurdays= Days Off :D
MWF- 8am Writing II Jane Carter (I heard she sucks)
MWF- 9am Child Psychology Frances Barth (I heard she kicks ass)
MWF- 10am Music Fundamentals Nancy Paxia Bibbins (yet again, I heard she sucks)
MWF- 11am U.S. History/Constitution to 1865 Steven O'Brien (heard he sucks as well)
MWF- 12pm Macroeconomics Michael Jones (I heard he also kicks ass)
so yup, classes 8-1 mwf, but i have tuesday and thursday off.... sweet deal |
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